I've been working through some resentment issues while undergoing quite a bit of change in my daily patterns of living. I'm the first to say I want things to change. Yet, when change comes and I have to change my habits, I stomp my feet and have actually been as selfish and mean-spirited as people I most detest and disapprove of! Why, I almost went off on my little mama last night when she said something that rubbed me the wrong way.
I swallowed the words that nearly came out of my mouth and stepped out on the front porch for some fresh air-and a new perspective. I have to admit I wasn't having much success-sometimes it's so much easier to stay in a bad mood. A friend of mine showed up unannounced, and I wasn't happy about that, either. It turned out that his visit was exactly what I needed to pull me out of my own self-righteous anger and pity party.
Before he got there I was actually bemoaning my sorry lot in life, feeling like I was unappreciated by those I try to help most. Here comes my friend with a beautifully wrapped Christmas present from his little sister, whom I've never known that well. She wanted me to know how much she appreciated my always having shown concern for her and having time for her when she needed to talk. The gift itself was something I had recently wished for-a spikenard scented candle. I'd just had a fleeting thought a few weeks ago that a candle such as that would be nice to have.
The Universe has such a way of bringing me back to the moment. I should know by now that whenever I'm into self-righteous indignation I'll be put in my place. And it's really a lovely place to be-a place of love and gratitude and knowing that the Universe provides for us so abundantly.
The holidays aren't always the easiest time of year to get through. My hope and wish for you is that you've had many experiences this holiday season that gave you the opportunity to express gratitude for the greatest gift of all-the life you have been given.
Blessed Be!
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